TRY.. Not to be somebody else.
Put your makeup on, get your nails done,
Curl your hair, run the extra miles, keep it slim so they like you,
Do they like you?
You don’t have to try so hard
You don’t have to give it all away
You just have to get up,
You don’t have to change a single thing
Why should you care what they think of you?
Lately I’ve been listening to this song, Try by Colbie Caillat. This song is trying to convey the message that every women need to love themselves just the way they are. They don’t need to try to change to be somebody else, and not to care what people think of them because it doesn’t matter. What matters is what we think of ourselves.
And it’s my issue recently.
I know that I’m trying hard, not to be somebody else, but to be somebody who can fit in. In society, in social media world, I wanna be seen as a fashionable girl, someone who has a good taste in fashion and has a proof that she’s capable in fashion. But with just some rejections (I’ve been featured in some fashion accounts and in some photos they called it ‘nay’ or bad photos) and boom! It dragged me down to the lowest level. Like, I’ve been asking myself, what I have done wrong. I don’t think that my photos (and my styles) are bad at all. I think it’s good enough. But to some people it doesn’t work on them.
And that what makes me feel.. I don’t know, sad, angry, but on the same side I also tried to think, why should I care about what they say. This is me, I don’t wanna change myself, and I’m proud of myself.
But then I looked back and realized on how much I’ve changed actually. And I don’t know if it’s for a good cause or not, but sometimes I feel I missed the old me. The old Dee who’s not afraid of what people might say, the old Dee who doesn’t give so much damn about what she’s gonna look like..
I love myself for what I was and for what I am. And now I come to a realization that I don’t have to change if my intention is to make people notice me, praise me, follow me on instagram (yes this silly reason counts) but I only have to change for my own good. I know it’s a bit selfish but I need to think what’s good for myself now. And my bestie has given me a formula to face the people who bashed my looks or my tastes in fashion: look at me, now look at you.
If you still have a lot of work to do on youself, stop judging people for what they look like because everybody is born to be different.
And that applies for me to.